Sometimes the pain of letting that someone or that something go will lead you to a whole new beginning. It may be tough but it's all about the faith, and you just gotta keep the faith..

Everything seem to be alright in the beginning, but suffering and pain starts to invade your life as the days pass. You don't know how to face it because it came so sudden and you weren't prepared for it.. You went on with life pretending nothing happened because you thought it was gonna be ok, but there it was with you the whole time. Everywhere you go, it's there. When you turned around, it's behind you. It's there, in your dreams, while you're awake, and sometimes you don't have enough air for you to breath..

People may not see the pain that you're going through because you're so good at keeping it, but deep down all that pain and sorrow is just waiting to burst out.. You have been holding it in for so long and now it's time to let it out.

Updates

Wow, it has been ages since I last blogged. Sorry to all for not updating, it has been a really busy month for me. This post is going to be a really long one as I will be sharing with you all on what happened to me throughout this whole time of me mia-ing, but I promise and will try my best to cut it short.

Hmm, where do I start? Erm, oh! My last post was about me leaving for orang asli, and I shall start from where I left off.. It was an AMAZING trip from the beginning to the end, so adventurous and it's something I would like to do again. We met at Kelana Jaya LRT station at 6.30am, took a train to pudu and had Wan Tan Mee for breakfast at Pudu bus station. We left Pudu and arrived Tanah Rata, Cameron and had our lunch at The T-Cafe or will soon be known as The Lord's Cafe right opposite Tanah Rata bus station and above MarryBrown. The interior is very simple, very english settings but they also added a little touch of Asian by putting up Asian decors. The food is SUPERB!! Their lamb chop is a best-seller, the lamb is super huge and the plate is filled with coleslaw, fries and mashed potatoes. I love their scorns, we were ordering like there's no tomorrow. Hahaha.. After lunch, we took a ride down from Tanah Rata to Habu which is also the pastors house who is also the person that will sent us to the hiking point. We started our hike at 6.30pm and it was already getting dark, our yellow light torchlights did not helped at all.. The hike was very tiring, but we manage to reach the village within 2 hours and they said that we were the fastest team yet. Through out our 4 days 3 nights stay there, we had lots of fun with the kids, the girls had time to converse with the women in the village, we had a great service and the best part was we all caught something/testimony from this trip. It was great to be a blessing, but it was even greater that we were all blessed.

Ok, moving on is my trials. Right after the orang asli trip, I had my SPM trials and it went on for 4 weeks non stop. I was like so giler stress, and I was so tired.. Why was my trials so long? 2 weeks was school trials and the other 2 was from the government.. I just wish that SPM faster ends, can't take it any more, too much for my brain to handle. Hahahaha.

This is the last update. To all who don't know, my dad is now diagnose with DLBCL stage 4 cancer. Me and my family have been in and out of University Hospital because my dad was admitted due to heavy vomiting, we would visit him every day until he was discharged right after each of us comes back from school and work.. Even after he was discharged, we still went back there every month for my dads monthly check up.. I know which place is nice to eat, I know which shop sells nicer waffles, I know every single corner of the hospital from the old building to the new building. Hehehe.. Me and my sis used to explore the hospital when my mum was busy taking care of my dad, we're the type of people who just can't sit still and also we wanted to give my parents alone time together.. My dad is feeling much better now, he will be doing a CT scan this coming Monday, will update more on my dad when we get the results. Just wanna use this opportunity to say thanks to all who came and visit and to everyone who prayed for my dad and my family, we really appreciate and may God bless you..

That is all from me for now. It still is long, guess I'm no good with summarising.. Hahaha.

The time is finally here, I'll be leaving for OA in 15 minutes.. The adrenaline rush is driving me crazy, I'm so excited and kan cheong!! Now I'm waiting for Charlotte's mum to come pick me up, then we'll go to court 7 and pick Benedict. From there 2 cars, Matt's mum and Charlotte's mum will be driving us to Kelana Jaya LRT station. A big thank you to Matt's and Charlotte's mum for making such a big sacrifice, waking up early in the morning just to send us off.. Thank you so much aunts!!! Thats all for now, will hear more after 4 days. Arghhhhhhh!!!

1 Day Left

We had our last OA meeting earlier at Philips house, and only then I realise that I have only 1 more day left to bye bye world.. Haha, typical over dramatic me.. It wont be that bad la, I believe that we're all gonna have fun there. I heard the kids there are "lovely", their pet animals are fun to play with.. Oh, their cold windy and peaceful night.. Wow, that will be awesome!! Fresh air through out the 4 days, and no disturbance.. But the hike will be a challenge!! Imagine, 4 hours of non stop stiff mountain hike while carrying at least 10kg of stuff on our back.. Lord Jesus, I need You. Haha..

Kakak-ku Tercinta

This post is for my "dearly beloved" sister.. Haha.

For all you who reads or follows my blog, you will realise that there are a few changes that has been made.. Modification was made only now was because honestly I didn't really know how to work my blog previously. I tried my best a thousand times and I still failed!! What a loser, hahaha.. I started loosing interest in blogging and I stayed with writing in journals. Funny thing is, I didn't try asking people for help, my ego totally blinded me from the beauty of blogging.. Hehh. One fine day, my sister came back home from work and she showed me her blog.. It was well done, fully furnished and she only started blogging that day.. She had everything under-controlled, it was beautiful, very artistic yet not over done. She's like good at everything, she's also the brains of the family. I couldn't stand it no more, I sucked in my ego and I asked her to help with my blog.. She did everything she could, I was watching her reinventing my blog and she was like some computer genius clicking away doing what she needed to do to bring my blog back to life.. In matter of minutes, she was done and it was awesome, simple and most of all GREEN!! I just wanna say thanks to my sister for helping me, not only for this blog but other things that she has helped me with in the past, things she is helping me with now and things that she will helped with in the future.. Thank you so much, I don't know what I'll do without my sister.

Shopping

Yesterday was really a tiring day for me. I had OA meeting with the team at Philip's house, we planned what we needed to do and stuff to buy and we're off to go shopping at Kelana Jaya's Giant.. 9 of us all together, 2 cars and a list filled with lots of stuff we needed to get. After we arrived at Giant, we head straight to get our wet wipes, hand sanitizers, shower cream, toothpaste, etc etc.. Later, we break into our own departments and went around Giant searching for what we are suppose to get. As for food side, we(myself, Sandra, Ben Koo) were given a budget of rm400-500 to spend. We got as much stuff as possible, yet we did not went over our budget and it all summed up to a total of rm260 only.. Hahaha, wise spender. After all the shopping, my body was ready to break. My leg hurts so bad and I was really hungry my stomach started growling as I was fasting, but thank God for his strength, I wouldn't have been able to survive the day if it wasn't because of Him. We went to KFC for dinner and head home..

I Love Food

This is the reason why people don't really commit suicide after break up's because we still have GLORIOUS FOOD to cheer us up!! for those who don't eat, You're a big time loser MAN!!


Chum Churum Korean BBQ Restaurant



Grill LAMB (Super Duper Yummylicious-its so soft and tasty)
and there's even step's on how to eat it

Check out the following pic's


KAMSA HAMIDA!!!


Grill Chicken (nice but the LAMB was the HIT that night)


One Hundred Years Old Street


Kuey Tiow Soup


Asam Laksa (someone claims its the 2nd best to the one in Mid Valley)


Lobak (read below for the comments)


This overshadows all food-closest to the superlicious penang chee cheong fun, A MUST!!



I love prawn mee.

So, what are you all still waiting for?? Go try out some of the food recommended on top.

-Courtesy of Mariane Stewart-